Christmas Memories, Bombing, Kyler and his Nana Pam, Shed, and Pain

 I love memories that pop up on my

FB feed. This was in the house I owned

in Old Hickory TN.

By the way, do you know how that 

city got its name?

Anyway, this was an old sled my

ex left behind when we divorced.

I decided to work it in with the 

Christmas decor.

My daughter now has it, cause I 

put shelves on it for displaying of 

Christmas stuff.

The wooden deer, I cut out and stained

YEARS (we will leave it at that) ago.

Guess I should have removed the birdhouse,

or at least decorated it.

My wreathes. You see, back growing

up, mom and dad never (and I am not sure

if it was even a thing) did not decorate

outside. Even though we had a good porch 

rail for hanging lights, it was not done.

I always liked having the windows

all dressed up also.

So, three windows on the front of the 

house, and they all had to have

a wreathes.

Which by the way, I still hang these same

wreathes here. I hung them at my childhood

hom when I lived that also.

A view from inside out.

This yr.....lights outside, I am going  to 

hang my wreaths today, tree might go up,

but I just want that for the lights, might not

not pull out the rest. Just can't give it the 

five days of decorating like last yr.

I am a photographer for lots of 

reasons, but once major one is that I 

HATE to have my pic made. 

So, its best to be the one doing the making.

But I so love to do a good photo 

BOMB!

I took this pic from Amber's page since

she took it.

I so cherish my babes and I don't mind

pics with them.

Now this is a site you don't see often, me

with makeup and my hair DOWN. 

I don't know what came over me, I usually

can not stand the hair down but I love it being

long enough to pull back.

Course, soon as I hit the inside of my 

home after dinner, I put it back up.

Lookie, lookie, lookie,

👀👀👀

what arrived on Wed.

I was excited but then I was told

that it would be hard to fit it in where

I wanted it. Okay, do the best you can. 

It just was not going to go back as far, big

deal, I would live with that. 

But once out there, doors open I did not

notice a problem till the dude was 

out of here. I had told him I needed it

up off the ground do to water that comes

down off the road, and after he left

I notice that part of the front is sitting 

on the ground. 
I noticed it cause the doors were closed

but before I did not see it.

Now, I have to see if I can 

get them back out to get it up.

Why is nothing ever easy?

Anyway, I don't want to go putting things out

there till I have some shelves put up.

Now to address my pain issue.

I think you all get the jest of what I deal 

with and I do take meds for it.

I take a med that was that is targeted 

to treat and help with the issues of 

Fibromyalgia. I have been on it since 

2011. I was diagnosed with this mess in 

05 and since at the time I figured that 

pain meds was what they would put me on,

I fought my body to keep from going

on anything. 

However, in 2011 I was going to be flying

out to Calif for my sons wedding and I knew

I would never make it. I barely made it from morning

to night as it was. I did not like my doc so I found 

my general practitioner that I totally LOVED and 

she is the one that put on this med. 

It works, it does its thing, prob is, it 

can't stop it. It was not until a few yrs later 

that the pain got even worse and I was put

on Gabapentin.

This drug was designed to t

reat folks with seizures, 

but someone decided to try it for nerve pain. 

At one point 900 mg a day.

I kept complaining about the pain, so doc

would take it up to give relief. 

At which point, here came the bugs.

BUGS you say?

Not real ones, but that is how my skin

felt, like there were bugs, crawling all over

me. So back to the doc and we took it down.

At this point I realized I had to live with the pain.

Yes, the Gabapentin helps, you don't realize how much

till you come off it. But it is not without its issues and 

for years now I have been feeling, noticing and dealing

with FORGETFULNESS. 

We all do from time to time, and it is another

issue we deal with as we age, but at my age,

it should not have been this bad.

So, talking to my new doc, which by the

way I think is close to age as some of 

my great grand babies and I am not so 

sure I care that much for, we decided to 

come off the Gabapentin. She had upped

my Fibro med to help with the depression I 

was fighting and said that maybe that would take

over for the Gab. Anyway, I broke down and 

saw a Rhemaloiogist who told me that upping the 

Fibro med would not help for anything but the 

depression (see why I am not caring so much 

for the other new doc?). Anyway, explaining to him 

my issues with remembering my name, he is 

trying a new med. I been on about a week so can't

tell you if that is helping or not. But I tell you 

all this to build up to tell you that this 

is the reason the pain as been ass kicking.

Tylenol will not touch this kind of pain, so in 

comes gummies. 

Anyway, hoping the meds kick in soon

so that I can have relief. Two months off

with no sort of pain killer, not fun. 

Yet, as you know, I pushed and pushed

and painted and created. 

You do what you gotta do.

Hoping you are having a great weekend,

Pam