Accident Waiting to Happen- That's Me, Fibro

You all know me by now.

I appear to be an accident or

screw up waiting to happen.

Mom used to tell me that she

could put me in a padded room

and I would come out with 

bruises all over me. 

Well Thursday Mark came

to cut the yard. He was on the 

rider in the fence and I was

doing some pushing with

my mower. He is great about getting

really close to items but to keep him

from having to do that I take the 

mower, usually before he comes

and I cut up close to the flower

garden, the deck, the bushes and 

trees I planted. However he surprised

me coming a day earlier then I thought

he would. But like I said, he was on 

the rider and I was near the flower

bed when all of a sudden, BAM something

hit my behind the head on the neck. A

rock or stick or something, I forgot to 

look. I jerked around cause I thought in 

that split second Mark was messing with me!!

 

Nope he was cutting away. I reached back

and already had a knot coming up. There is 

a small red place right under the that

patch of hair. I know hard to see.

It was really sore but the next

day it was all gone. I did not say anything

to Markie since he would have felt really

bad. But just goes to show you that I am

some sort of target!!

Anyway what  you prob don't know is

I deal with a lot of issues that connect

to my Firbromyalia. Of course the universe

targeting me is totally different. But some

of my accidents waiting to happen are

due to it.

I have balance issues. I can be standing,

both feet on the ground, body not moving

and I can lose my balance and strumble

forward or to the side. Oops....I just 

make a silly comment about drinking

to much. I get dizzy and will also lose

my balance like that.

I also have issues holding on to things.

I drop a lot of things and due to that

I can make a mess in the kitchen.

Either with breaking something or

spilling something. I just laugh, go

on about my business and clean up. 

If I let that stuff mess with me I 

would be a total basket case.

Walking, I sometimes don't pick

my feet up enough and I trip over

things that are not there. I do this

cause my legs sometimes are really

weak. And to fall up stairs....wow,

I should get an award. I fall up 

more then I have fallen down. 

I know that as you age you tend

to forget things from one min

to the next but ......

wait, what was I talking about?

LOL...I have gotten really bad. 

I used to say it was a sign of

a busy mind and you could not

keep up with all going on in there...

then when I was younger I called

it Jr. Alhimerizer's. Well then I got

older and had to drop the Jr. 

Well I finally stopped that all

together cause mom reminded

me my granny had that!

With that the scare set in cause

I have since lost an aunt and 

uncle along with granny from

that mess. 

I had to call my forgetting something

so I started calling it Lack of 

Oxygen to the Brain moments.

Why...I found out that my migraines

were just that...lack of oxygen. 

Sleep apnea was the cause of that.

So....that is what I call it now. 

Although with being on a CPAP

for 15 yrs and the memory 

is no better I am realizing that 

yes, the Fibro does mess with 

the memory also. 

I could go on and on about this

mess, like how I can stay on focus,

some days I can't carry on a 

decent conversation cause my 

mind skips around so much that

no one can follow my chain of

thought, or how I use the wrong

word when talking about something 

which to me makes me feel like

a dumb butt. Or how the big toe

on both feet are partially numb and 

up the back part of the right foot. 

The pain, everyday, all day. 

There is so much more that 

goes hand in hand with this

mess.

I tell you this to let you know why

things happen sometimes like they

do. Like the breaking of dishes and 

stuff but....I really, really wished that 

the universe would lay off and stop

hitting me with rocks!

Pam