Weighing on my Mind, Painting

(all pics from internet)

Had a lot weighing on my mind

lately. 

One thing started with my eye surgery.

Getting it approved and then not 

being able to have it done due to

the virus. Then from there when 

things started to look better here

in Nashville I decided to book it,

and that was before things started 

to look bad again. 

Anyway, booking it weighed on 

my thoughts, you see all through

my years if I had to have surgery my

mom was always there to take me.

This time however she was not....

so it fell on my daughter to have to

take a day off work to do it. I had

issues asking her which was on me,

not on her. I generally never ask 

people to do things for me. 

Yep, I cried having to ask.

I knew she would but it was

another first in my life without

mom and I thought I was past 

those. 

Anyway, the Monday before

my Friday surgery Amber

got sick. Oh course I told

her it was not a big deal, I

would get someone to take me.

And in the back of my mind

I was considering canceling it.

My bestie Debbie, the one I 

would have went to moved

2 hours away last Oct. So next

in line would have been Theresa.

However T had to be with the 

Governor all day traveling.

Canceling was going to be it.

Then T called her other good

friend Liz and Liz said she 

could do it. That was so sweet

of her but I hate putting others

out. And since Liz and I are

not really that close I did not

want to go that way. But I 

agreed. 

On Thursday Amber said

she was feeling better and 

with a few shots of this....

And a dose of this....

Amber was prepared to take me.

What I did not say was I broke

down and cried when I thought

someone else would take me.

Then I cried again when I realized

Amber could do it. 

I know this probably sounds silly

to some but it was an emotional time

for me. I have had major surgery

before and never been this emotional. 

Anyway...that is just part of what has

been weighing on my mind. 

VIRUS, PROTEST, BLM, 

needing to work, needing to stop

shutting down and get things 

done....so much. Its been such

a crazy time for us all. 

Really did not think it was bothering

me that much till I started to notice

that I was clinching my jaws all

the time. Can't seem to stop it.....

Guessing its just a sign that

things are bothering me....

Okay...moving on ....

I told you before that my

son in law has been playing around

with paints. He was trying to paint

by video's of Bob Ross. I however

told him to STOP THAT!

I found him some cool video's 

on Pinterest to follow.

Here is his first one from

what I suggested.

(pic from Amber)

Great job Will!

How has the events of this 

years affected you?

Have you ever thought to 

pull out some paints and play?

Pam