Mom and the Cardinal

With the last breathe your life

can change so much. 

Right now I am living at my

mom's home. I promised

her sometime ago, long before

she left us that I would care

for her dogs. 

I now have three more furbabes.

This is Molly.

She is 14.

My brothers and I have not talked

about all this stuff yet but 

I figure I will stay here

till Molly is gone. I don't think

she will relocate to my house

very well.

This is Cheyenne.

She is about 8.

And Chole. 

4 yrs old.

I think I could relocate this two

easier but once my brothers

and I talk I will know more.

My daughter took this pic,

and posted this on FB.

I have been quiet on here about what my family and I are going through right now, only because my grandmother hates Facebook. But now I need everyone’s prayers for comfort for all of my family.

On Dec. 28th my grandmother had surgery, on the 30th she was rushed to ICU where she remained til yesterday. The doctors have done all they can do and she told us all she wanted to go home. So yesterday we brought her home to be with her dogs and family. She is now resting comfortably at home where she wanted to be.

Now I’ll say this if you have never had the opportunity to meet this amazing woman then you are missing out. You couldn’t ask for a better grandmother. She is feisty, strong, and hard headed. She does things her way and doesn’t care what you think. She told me once she is 82 and has earned the right to be that way. She is a grandmother to 6 grandkids and 5 great grandkids, that all love her so much.

I have so many many memories of her and with her (I’ll save those for myself). I will miss making more memories with you granny. I will miss calling you everyday after work just to talk. I will miss you trying to say my name while calling me all your dogs names and some of my cousins names ( I do this with my kids too). I will miss everything about you. You have been a constant loving, supporting person in my life for 38 years. I know you haven’t always agreed with my decisions and I’m sure I have disappointed you at times. I hope and pray you’re proud of the woman, wife and mother I have become. I will make sure my boys always know how much you love them. Our whole family is who they are because of you. You helped raise all of us.

I know you’re still here but I miss you so much already. I’ll love you forever. I will make you proud while you watch down from heaven. You will be my guardian angel. I love you Granny.

You see my mom was a private person

and she did not want her business

on FB. I was told to be sure I did not

post anything about her surgery. I honored

that wish. 

HOWEVER - I did message some

friends once she was in ICU asking 

for prayers. My niece was the first to 

post on FB. HAHA Mom can't be 

upset with me over that one, I had

no control!

Mom's service was yesterday,

 such a hard

day. 

I have not been left alone for 

very long at a time. My son flew

in from Calif. and bless her heart

my daughter has stuck to me like glue.

I have cried, I have broke down, I 

have cussed, I even hit a door.

Today, numb I think is the term I 

will use. I think that fits well right now. 

Really, really hoping that this is not a sign

of the yr to come. 

Yesterday after the service we went to 

my brothers home for a meal...

its the south, the amount of food was

unreal cause that is what us Southern

folks do. 

After leaving there I came back to my

moms. I needed to get the dogs fed

but first they needed to go out.

I opened the back door and inside the 

screened in porch, a red bird was 

flying around. 

Ever heard what it means for a cardinal to

visit you?

It is someone from heaven coming to 

check on you.

It landed on the back of the 

outdoor chair.

I started to get a broom and sort of 

push it out when I remember the bird 

saying. With that I looked for something

to get it up on to take it out before it

hurt itself. Mom had removed a stake

from a plant and tossed it in the 

deck trash can. I grabbed that, and put it right

up to the birds feet. It was in NO hurry

to move. It just looked at me.

I pushed the stake to the bird again and 

it jumped up. Not even trying to fly 

away. I took it out to the deck part

that is not screened in, thinking just

as soon as I get it out, it would fly off.

No....like I said, no hurry.

I stood there with it, I think I even

told mom that I understood.

I reached out and petted it with one

finger, then two. 

Finally it looked up at me again,

and off it went.

Now this sounds like a really good

story and I am thankful I 

have pics (well of course I do).

I was shocked, stunned and crying.

I think mom was all around us yesterday.

My daughter read up on cardinals and the

meaning when she read something that shocked

her and she called me.

She asked did the ceiling fan light in 

my bedroom ever flicker. 

It has not.

She saw it happen three or four times

yesterday morning when getting read 

(her and her fam stayed there after

visitation the night before). She asked

her hubby if he saw it and he did not.

In what she read it said that sometimes

a loved one will visit via electricity. 

Thinking that maybe there were 

signs all day long we just have not 

put them all together. 

I can't take subtle hints, I have to 

have BIG RED SIGNS, so I think 

that mom sent me the red bird for that

reason and cause she loved watching them

fly around the yard. Those and Eastern

bluebirds. Which Amber and I saw 

about 4 or 5 flying right up next to the 

house the day before we lost mom.

I told Amber I hoped that was not a sign.

Should have looked away and not noticed

that one sign. Course it would have 

happened anyway. 

Talking about electricity, after the bird and

Amber's experience I walked in mom's

bathroom, flipped on the switch and 

the bulb blew.

Do you think these were signs?

I think, at least with the bird that my

mom was there to comfort me, to let

me know that everything would be okay. 

I miss you so much mom.

I love you.

Pam