Life Goes On
I think my Gypsy Soul,
Spiritual Heart is on
shut down for a bit.
I know its just been a month
tomorrow but I have so
many feelings that just keep
churning over and over again in
my mind and thoughts.
Feeling like I have not just
lost my mom but I
So....do you have a certain
Do you turn to it when you
are low and down?
Is it a food that you have
carried with you through life?
Well for me its just food in general and
basically food I should be staying
But as far as sandwiches that was
a fave while growing up...
and I do still love them.
However yesterday I had to cook
some chicken tenders I laid out the
night before to thaw.
Decided that I would make
Oh it was good.
Night before last night (and last
night) I was having issues
going to sleep so I decided
to look through things
Her sister Carolyn past away
Right after that mom started
picking up change that she
said Carolyn was tossing
down at her.
I found a vase with change in
Oh my mom.....oh my.
Yesterday two of my nephews
were in Georgia. So on the way
home they decided to ride through
Cedartown Ga. my mom's hometown.
Cobi had been there five yrs ago with
his dad and mom told them how
to get to the house that she
lived in at the age of 14.
Cobi wanted to drive back through
there. He called me wanting
to know if I had the address.
However it had been about 15
yrs since I had been there and
all I could remember was the street
While looking through things of
moms trying to locate the address
I saw this.
(my moms organizational skills have always
Chase is another nephew. Chase
took up racing at the age of 14.
Here are internet clippings, and
newspaper clippings that mom saved
through Chase's racing yrs.
Okay....back to the first story, looking
for the address..
The name of the street was enough
for Cobi to locate the house from
My aunt Martha was born in this home.
She is 14 yrs younger than my mom.
The home mom was born in was
torn down a long time ago.
One day I want to grab my cameras, get
someone to come stay with the
multitude of pets and drive to
Cedartown. Go to the three cemeteries I
have relatives buried at, go by this place,
my great aunts old home and my
great grannies old place....I wanted
to take mom back but we ran out
Now another look at the healing
arm, took these last night (11 days).
Knot going down but not looking
And the back side is still looking
yucky. Still some blood pooling.
Meds almost gone and apt for recheck
is the 18th.
As for the head crap I caught
a few days after mom's passing,
still blowing my nose. It never got down
to the chest which is great. Most folks
I talk to say getting rid of the cough is
the worst but that is not my issue.
THE RUNNY NOSE is driving
Wow....its been a wicked month and
Yesterday while chilling (all day) in the
living room the TV cut off and I have
yet to get it back on. I let my two brothers
know that mom's biggest tv died (just so
there is no questions later) so today I
will probably run to my house and
get one of mine. Thank goodness
for the flat tvs these days.
Mom has a small recliner in her room and
a tv there, this is where she lived most of
her time. The living room was never
used however I can't just sit in
the bedroom. There are a couple more
smaller tvs here but I need a big one for that
long living room....
Supposed to have dinner with Justin (My
friend Laura's son) and
another friend of Laura's, Bonita.
I need to go.
I am not sure I want to go.
But I need to get out.
I need to see Justin. I know he
knows I have not forgotten him,
he knows what I am dealing with
but yesterday was his first bday without
his mom. Mine will be in a few days.